November 12, 2015

Review - Cam Girl by Leah Raeder


Vada Bergen is broke, the black sheep of her family, and moving a thousand miles away from home for grad school, but she’s got the two things she loves most: her art and her best friend—and sometimes more—Ellis Carraway. Ellis and Vada have a friendship so consuming it’s hard to tell where one girl ends and the other begins. It’s intense. It’s a little codependent. And nothing can tear them apart. Until an accident on an icy winter road changes everything.

Vada is left deeply scarred, both emotionally and physically. Her once-promising art career is cut short. And Ellis pulls away, unwilling to talk about that night. Everything Vada loved is gone. She’s got nothing left to lose.

So when she meets some smooth-talking entrepreneurs who offer to set her up as a cam girl, she can’t say no. All Vada has to do is spend a couple hours each night stripping on webcam, and the “tips” come pouring in.

It’s just a kinky escape from reality until a client gets serious. “Blue” is mysterious, alluring, and more interested in Vada’s life than her body. Online, they chat intimately. Blue helps her heal. And he pays well, but he wants her all to himself. No more cam shows. It’s an easy decision: she’s starting to fall for him. But the steamier it gets, the more she craves the real man behind the keyboard. So Vada pops the question: Can we meet IRL?

Blue agrees, on one condition. A condition that will bring back a ghost from her past.

Now Vada must confront what she’s been running from. A past full of devastating secrets—those of others and those she’s been keeping from herself…

Leah Raeder is a writer and unabashed nerd. She is also the USA Today bestselling author of Unteachable and Black Iris. Aside from reading her brains out, she enjoys graphic design, video games, fine whiskey, and the art of self-deprecation. She lives with her very own manic pixie dream boy in Chicago. Visit her at



Cam Girl isn’t what I expected, but I can’t say I didn’t find beauty in Vada’s story. What I expected when I picked up Cam Girl was the story about a girl who was broken beyond repair and turned to camming as a last resort. I expected a girl that found herself and love in the boy she met online. While some of that is true, the ending and delivery was completely unexpected. 

Vada is bisexual and the story begins after she wakes up from a fatal car accident. There are flashbacks to the accident and we learn that Vada was with her girlfriend and best friend Ellis. In the accident they hit another driver, a young guy who was ejected from the vehicle and died immediately. Prior to the accident Vada and Ellis were not in a good place and this accident just escalated their ending. 

Maybe we needed to break a little, so we could put ourselves back together more beautifully than before. 

Vada finds herself emotionally and physically broken after the accident. Due to her injuries from the car accident she can no longer draw, which was her life and way of expressing herself. She was a graduate art student, but now she isn’t sure where or how to continue. She is overcome with guilt and a skeleton of the person she used to be when she receives an invitation to be a cam girl. 

This is not even the gist of the story, things run so much deeper and the way everything unfolds is unexpected. I had so many speculations while reading and while somethings did happen as predicted I was always just half correct in my assumptions. 

I honestly can’t relate with this situations in this book, but I while reading it I was heartbroken for the people who experience these feelings and emotions. I can’t imagine feeling these things, feeling alone, lost and misunderstood. Not having people to relate to or discuss things with, or worse having the people who should love you best shun you. So again, while this isn’t my typical read I can’t deny the feelings I felt while reading Cam Girl. I can’t deny that this book made me think and empathize with others and their struggles. 

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