BESTSELLING AUTHOR M. ROBINSON
COVER MODEL MITCH MCKERSIE
COVER DESIGN THE FINAL WRAP
RELEASE MAY 10TH
They say in order to find yourself you have to go home.
What if home was what you're running from?
Where did that leave you?
Always on the other side of the fence.
Always looking in.
Always wishing you were someone you couldn't be.
Until one day you meet her.
She was my high, but she was also...
Colors blended together making it hard to focus on one thing. I blinked a few times and just like that…
I saw her face.
As if she was standing right in front of me.
My whole world…
I felt my lips curl up slightly at the vision as I reached out for her. Wanting to touch her, needing to hold her, yearning to kiss her. Craving, God, craving to fucking love her.
“I’m sorry,” I murmured out loud to no one but the illusion of my drug-infested mind. “I’m so fucking sorry,” I repeated repentantly, longing for her to believe me.
Aching for her to love me again like she used to.
I don’t know how long I sat there, staring at her beautiful face before my eyes, subconsciously rubbing the tattooed key that was placed over my heart. I couldn’t take it anymore, and the desire won over the haze.
It was too powerful.
It was too vivid.
I grabbed my phone. “Baby,” I said into the speaker. The ringing quickly followed, going straight to voicemail. I hung up and tried again. “Baby,” I urged with desperation in my tone.
I tried again and again and again.
I would try until the end of time if that’s what it took for her to answer.
To talk to me.
To save me.
To crave me.
Time just seemed to standstill, as my life slowly played out in front of me. Trying to balance in between the light and the darkness when all I could see was gray.
“What?!” she screamed into the phone, finally answering after I don’t know how many failed attempts. “What the hell do you want now?”
“Mi cielo.” I breathed a sigh of relief.
She ignored my term of endearment. I hadn’t called her that in such a long time.
“What do you want, Austin? Why are you calling me? We’re over! I can’t do this anymore!”
I shut my eyes and let my mind wonder, allowing it to go to another place in time where she didn’t hate me.
“I remember the first time I made you smile,” I chuckled, as if it had just happened.
My nerves were on fire. The mere sound of her breathing through the phone was too intense for me. I licked my lips, my mouth suddenly dry.
“I remember when you used to smile just for me. Do you remember, baby? Do you remember what my love feels like?”
I heard her faintly breathing.
“Do you remember my hands on you? My lips? My tongue? The first time I made you come with my mouth? Do you remember all the times since? Tell me I’m not forgotten. Tell me you remember, baby.”
“I love you, Briggs. I love you so fucking much. You’re killing me, don’t you see that? I’m dying without you.”
“No, Austin. You were dying with me,” she rasped, knowing that it killed her to say that.
“The first time I saw your face, I thought to myself, damn, this beautiful girl is goin’ to be the death of me. You were perfect in every way. I was a cocky son of a bitch who needed you then, as much as I need you now.”
“I had a dream about you, baby. I always fucking dream about you. In my dream you had a ring on your finger. A ring I put there. You belonged to me. Only mine. Forever fucking mine. You were pregnant, Briggs. You looked so goddamn happy. I saw light at the end of the tunnel for the first time in years.”
She sniffled into the phone.
“I made love to you. Slow, just the way you love. Taking my time to touch every last inch of your body. Memorizing every last bit of you. Making you come until you begged me to stop. I didn’t.”
“I can’t—” she tried to interject, but I didn’t let up.
“I kissed your stomach. Our baby. Letting my lips linger there, whispering sweet lullabies, letting her know daddy will always be there. Baby, it was so real. For a second I gave you the one thing you so desperately wanted, the one thing I can’t give you.”
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My 5 Star Review
It’s time to get real. This series started off on a high for me and I couldn’t wait to see what would come next for The Good Ol’ Boys. Somewhere along the way I developed this idea of Austin and I wasn’t looking forward to this story. See Austin is an addict and that storyline isn’t my favorite, because addiction is rarely beaten. However, this is probably my favorite in the series, so I was completely wrong.
As you know Austin is an addict. It all started when he was in the accident with Alex and it really just grew and spiraled out of control from there. When he meets Briggs it’s the perfect storm for an addict, because he is given the opportunity to become more immersed in that lifestyle.
Now Briggs, she is not an addict. She isn’t perfect, but she longs for more and for normalcy. Having lost her family at a young age, she just wants to belong and have a family again.
I swear my heart absolutely broke for these two, because both are damaged in their own way. They are two struggling souls fighting, and a lot of times losing, for peace, love and acceptance. This story spans multiple years, but I think it was necessary to show the changes and to really see the struggles.
"You’re addicted to drugs, Austin. And I’m addicted to you. And our love is just as fucking toxic.”
This story is full of emotion, drama and heart, but it didn’t feel like drama for drama. I can’t think of anything I would change in this story. It is a hard read that broke my heart wide open, but it was beautifully written and felt real. By the end, I loved Austin and Briggs and wanted a happily ever after for them so desperately. I wanted them to find the peace they craved and I wanted them to find it together.
I loved Complicate Me, but Austin’s story ended up being my favorite. I feel like it’s just more, and I love more in a book. I definitely recommend for when you are ready for an emotional read, that will take you on a rough journey, but will ultimately leave you feeling hopeful.
PS - M. Robinson, that preview/ending, seriously! I need to know!!!!
ARC kindly provided in exchange for an honest review.
Teasers created by me with stock images purchased from deposit photos.
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Bestselling author of The VIP Trilogy, Tempting Bad, Two Sides Gianna, and The Good Ol' Boys series. M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein. She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.